Damn, when was the last time I wrote an entry which related to my life and all of the shit that I’ve been doing? I think it’s been so long since. Been with up with informative and sometimes poser articles that makes readers want to throw up. Is there even anyone who would bother to read this fucking site that’s not named Jayvee Sacramento? Hell, I’ve become so desperate for content that I even tried the post-game Laker Game Reviews only to find out that I couldn’t keep it up and that I will never ever be a good Laker corrsespondent no matter how much I nuthug the balls of the players especially Kobe. In fairness they’re doing well right now and I will promise to stop making these poser game reviews just to boost my entries per month.

Got my graduation pics already, but um, no previews allowed here.

I’ve been bugged by stress lately. But what’s new anyway, when was the last time that I haven’t been bugged by stress anyway? Maybe when I was 12. So many things to juggle, so little time.

I got this paper in non-parametric econometrics which I have no idea on how to do considering that my two groupmates are counting on me to deliver. Wow. Talking about expectations that are as heavy as the world. Little do they know that I am as clueless as them with the lessons that are being taught in our nonparametric econometrics class. They are in for a big shock when we fail the paper or produce a half-baked product from imagination and rubbish. Also, I flunked the midterms in this class with a whopping score of 18/100. Great, fucking great. I also readily expect to fail the make-up quiz on Tuesday. Just hoping that it won’t be worse than my midterm score. This basically means that my grade in this course and, eventually, my dear life depends on two components: the final paper and the final exam. God, I’m so excited to see our first draft filled with red marks like it was stabbed by our professor twenty times per page.

In fact, I’m prepared to recieve Christmas balls during the course card day. But I’m not sure that my face is willing to take Christmas balls seeing that I will take a physical, moral and spiritual beating that will completely change my life from my mom once she finds out that I flunked this course.

Also having a hard time with the practicum. I always thought that our economics department will be the one to place us in practicum firms and let us work from there. I was in for a shocking revelation. HELL. FUCKING. NO. JAYVEE! You are the one to pick and apply your own company for practicum. Also, the Economics Department will not be the one to make your resume, dumbfuck! I’ve tried searching for companies to practicum… I always found out that I was searching at the wrong places. I’m always seeing results for people who should have experience — in simple terms, these are full-time work. Although I would love to take a crack at these jobs, it just isn’t meant to be. And I don’t want to be the laughing matter of a company just for applying at a wrong position.

But thank God and to the one who invented JobStreet. I always thought this site was never for student-interns who want to play around with their employing firms. But, alas! I found an opening at the Philippine Stock Exchange.

So I asked a friend who’s also looking for a practicum firm on what do I need to get into PSE as a student intern. He said the magic word. He uttered the magic word that makes me fold up into the fetal position and suck my thumb for no reason at all. He uttered the word that I totally dread… REGRESSION! I can’t believe what I heard from him so I started asking myself if I can do this. Fuck it, if the PSE asked me to regress something during the interview, there is a guaranteed 70 percent chance that I will fail the internship application! Well, add to that my stage fright and the great fear of interviews and confrontation. So I came to double check with another friend who did a practicum firm at PSE. She said no regressions, just plain interviews. I’m freaked out. I don’t want to do regression because I will get exposed big time because of a shaky econometric foundation. I admit, our professor in Econometrics 1 was of big help by absenting himself 90 percent of the time and mentioning the words “BASA (english: read) LANG YAN” 90 percent of the time he was teaching us. I had to crawl and kiss the ground just to learn some econometrics.

Fuck that shit. So it comes down to who gets to interview me. I just pray by a long shot that I wouldn’t fall into the hands of a devil in the interview. If I do fall into the hands of econometrics, maybe I should start praying for intervention… or to look for another company to do my practicum.

I’m also a candidate for the award category Failure due to Absences or the DLSU FA award in Basic Sociology because our attendance checker is a nerdfuck who can’t track attendance well. I haven’t even absented myself in that class for more than 4 times. Where did they put the yellow fucking pad when we wanted to sign attendance. And now they have this weird system of demanding you to call two people who you both barely know to testify that you were present just to take back your absence/s. What a fucking system. Why would we really bother to care if someone’s present or not there unless they’re our friend? Or our crush?

Also, repeating Sociology because you over-cut the subject is shameful. That’s just basic Sociology for fuck’s sake!

There’s also the big shadow Finals week all over La Salle. In two weeks. Now this is a real entry. I already want to hide under a rock far from the world of noise and stress, far from school, especially from the loud mouth of my mom when he wakes me up. Please shoot me now. I only want a computer and an internet connection. GO AWAY YOU ALL STRESSES!

Fuck, I still haven’t made a resume and a cover letter for the practicum firms that I will be applying!