Just last week, I got my own site in desperate hopes of trying to establish myself as an internet personality and someone that kids will look up at and will go online for. Isn’t that fantastic? So here I am now, writing content for my relatively new site - writing content for people to jack off. It’s a start-up and I could only expect things to go up with consistent and truthful writing. But I just realized something just the past days while I was trying to configure my site:

Getting your own web space and your own personal domain sounds so appealing to the senses isn’t it? I just realized that you should not be fooled too much with the joys getting your own web page and domain because if you aren’t really decided and ready it’s an altogether different matter when you, the owner, comes to a point wherein you have to manage your site once in a while. Managing a site is an altogether different scenario in comparison to just enjoying the beauty of some site. I know, it’s just once in a while but I just don’t know why it just saps the energy out of me everytime I do routinary checks of my web page. Maybe it’s just that I’m too stupid to do some commands and I’m too lazy to find where to insert this and that code to make a certain plug-in or a Wordpress theme work.

I just had finished trying to find a way to make Gravatars work in my site. That just took me 3 hours. I’m that of a slow worker with a combined skill for being a wanna-be PHP and CSS geek because I just get lost when I look at these files that I need to configure to make shit work. Well, I still have quite a number plug-ins to try finish and out of frustration and stupidity, I will stop being a pretentious geek and will ask expert help from someone who knows how to set the plug-ins to their correct configuration. Those plugins appear to me like an Amazon Wish List - all are just wishes that are in most chances are unattainable. I plan to get some help with professional bloggers but I don’t know if they are available.

Just last weekend, while I was online, I tried to visit my site for the sake of vanity and to check if the site renders correctly across browsers. It was a different result from what I expected to come out of my browser window. I did not expect it to come but it did.

I looked at the message for something like 5 seconds and then I freaked the hell out. I tried to clear the browsers of cache data and other saved browser info and tried to open it again. Guess what appeared.

I still did not believe the circumstance, so I repeated step 2 again. And again…

…i failed. So I waited for 5 minutes. I was so insistent and eager to get the site back to its normal operation. I was so OC about it. I was still in disbelief like La Salle losing to [the] Ateneo in the UAAP. I tried to login to the site’s CPANEL to check what is wrong. Nothing was wrong. Tried to check the FTP. It was all working. All I got is a crap load of…

…this. Sensing that my efforts for the last thirty minutes or so will not bring anything good to me or to my computer, I tried to text my web host provider. I tried to visit their site and it was also down. But after some fifteen minutes, it was already up. I was just about ready to run on fumes when the web host personnel contacted me - but not to say that my site has been already done, but to ask what is my site that was down. Bonehead. The only thing that kept me away from bursting is that after I texted, my site already went up again. They were fast. It’s really hard to have your own domain not like when you have Wordpress where the emo bloggers just can blame their staff for all shit that goes wrong and then transfer to Blogger as a sign of rebellion.

I’m learning the ins and outs of having my personal domain. And I don’t really think that I’ll love it.